Just when you think you know it all..

I've spent a lot of my time on this blog dreaming of the "perfect man", romance, love the whole lot. But i think it's about time i stepped into the reality of it. You see us women never really know what we want, because when we want it so bad and it comes it might not come as we expected, at all! For me personally i think it's time i learned more about myself as a woman.. I've only just come to terms recently about loving myself and learned how it is to spoil myself and make myself happy. The thing is, i have fulfilled everything i wanted a man to do myself. There is plenty of time for me, and i believe there shant be any rush as for my Mr. Right will be out there somewhere and will come truly when him and i are both ready. I'd rather we both be stable and experienced enough for the spark to grow, but for the meanwhile i have far too many things on my plate i would like to achieve before settling. For now, i have more new goals and i can't wait to achieve them!! Wish me luck! <3

When do we know he REALLY cares...

When do you know a man cares about you, or even loves you? Is he serious? Or do you feel being messed about? When should we really trust our instincts, and when do we go for it? What if we're wrong and make the wrong turns.. Oh God the things we go through for a bit of romance in our life.

Thankfully, due to a lot of adventures that has happened recently, i really don't know where to start...

When do we know his feelings are genuinely in his heart? You see this question i've been asking.. Does he actually care? Although he seems to be genuine, it's just the history which is backing me away.. Should i be worried? Hmmm.. This isn't going to be easy.
Unfortunately, this generation aren't very open verbally in relationships, men don't understand women want reassuring.. We need to know what you really feel!
Well, although we have history, i fell we're starting fresh, which can always be good.. Can it? So technically i really don't know whether to call him my man or not.. This is all new to me anyways so I'm not sure really what to expect.. It's a new page, in a new book so i guess we'll just take things slow from now. After all, the whole reason things didn't work out in the first place was because of lack of communication.. But that's a whole different story.. Communication has boosted up a lot recently, so i'm taking it we're getting to know each other all over again, which is interesting. 

But this still doesn't answer, how do we know he really cares?

• The way he kisses you, filled with passion (But yet again he could just be an experienced kisser)
  
  
• When he notices your little habits, indication he pays a lot of attention to you indicating he actually cares
  
  
• When a guy wants to spend more time with you, dates out with you at places of your choice and share memorable moments

• When your in need (feel ill, or poorly) and puts you before his friends.. 
  
  
• When he calls you or message you just to chitchat with you, finding any reason to talk to you. (awww)
  
  
• You can make out from a person's eyes. The person in love with you has special shine in his eyes when he's talking to you.

 But you know what? I still don't know? :P
We'll just have to wait to find out.. Maybe if you have any suggestions on how to know.. Please... Let me know !!

Romance in the snow

Who ever mentioned winter was a cold period where everyone suffers being cold lonely or the fortunate ones who actually have another half who take them as serious to keep them warm. Maybe i was confused this whole time, and maybe i hurt myself this whole time. One thing I've learned is to never listen to other people's advice especially when it comes to personal relationships. The relationship should only include you and your partner and nobody have the right to get involved. You never know, what the other person is thinking unless if you communicate, which i think that's what I've lacked in my life.. Just remember It's the communication in between that counts and not around you. No one knows the situation as much as the both of you, and no one really knows whats going on so why risk it when others could really just want to destroy something that is potentially perfect (well for this imperfect world anyway).. Who knows what could happen, goodness knows where things could lead.. but for the meantime i know feelings still exist & this time friends won't get involved.

I've always wanted myself a romance story from a 1950's Audrey Hepburn film.. Maybe here it is <3

Drunken Nights

Having a drink with a couple of friends may sound like innocent fun, especially if your just a social drinker. Fun enough until you wake up the next day and think.. Oh crap -.-

The 7 Types of Drunks..

1. The Sleepy
2. The Huggy
3. The Fighter
4. The Hyperactive
5. The Crying
6. The Deep Conversation
7. The Player 

Which one would you consider yourself? I'm not much of a drinker myself but i think maybe after a recent experience I'm the "Deep Conversation" one.. looool.. Definitely the one who would end up calling people telling them my thoughts and whatever random rubbish comes out of my mind.. Gosh i need to find myself a really understanding great listener who can stand the bulls crap that actually comes in my mouth! Who's interested?

At least i don't do any harm .. I'm all fun fun fun 

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P.S. Sorry to those who ever received an inappropriate call from me,.. But y'all know it's just love <3

It's not i feel i don't get the attention... it's just i feel I'm receiving the attention for all the wrong reasons... When i feel i get close to someone, they feel it's a ticket to the runway.. Honestly? I just want someone who sees me for being me!

Is it that i need to learn how to trust my instinct more possibly? But then it always gives me mixed signals confusing me, making me just give up in the end.
I'm normally known to be a great listener, good at giving good advice and just being there to let it out on, but now i need it.. i don't think i can find it anywhere making things feel like I'm standing on thin ice, just waiting for it to break so i can fall through.

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears." 

 I need to be taken more seriously, I hate the fact that most men see me sexually than intellectually.. Support me towards the things i have planned for my life, or even sit to listen to me, encouraging me instead of me encouraging them, letting myself let go and not realize whats in it for me. I guess the only word I'm looking for here is Respect.

The perfect man!

Can someone please tell me where i can find a man who would do this for me... He's everything i want in a man.. yet again his music makes me cry over and over. Thanks to Bruno Mars, he makes me believe that my Mr. Right is definitely around even up to my standards.. If Bruno is around, then there MUST be more than one of him! Honestly.. it's worth the wait!!

“Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes they bring you down and sometimes, like now, they get you so high.”

Bruno Mars - Grenade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR6iYWJxHqs

As much as i see his videos, he continues to succeed to make my eyes water and make me go emotional..
Read the lyrics and you will know why!

Lyrics


Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

 lnm03d

Spa from Hell!

There are some times in our lives where we feel the need to spoil ourselves a bit. This time it happened with me thinking i'm in desperate need of a massage! So therefore i thought it would be nice of me to treat myself to a nice day in a spa... Not knowing what i was going to put myself through! Never have i ever had the worse experience in my LIFE! Firstly, there were men around flaunting what their baba's gave them like no tomorrow... Isn't this suppose to be a spa for women... then why the hell are there men! Right, forget that.. the masseuse couldn't make my experience get any worse.. digging her fingers into my back.. Honestly I'm surprised i don't have any bruises around my back.. Let alone the fact that the only thing she could talk about was rich men and how she's trying hard to find one... Urmmm excuse me? I'm trying to relax here love!  Well i guess not.. i don't know how i put through it anyways! The whole experience was a nightmare.. So i thought it would be at least better if i went into the sauna to relax after a disastrous massage.. but of course a naked pervert with his art work being flaunted for the world to see was sitting there.. i just froze in shock while he sat there smiling at me... Seriously!! Is there such a place like that! This spa use to be quite decent up until recently. (I'm guessing) It probably went down hill and thought of another way to keep the economy going!! I feel so grossed out and now i'm suffering from back pains.. Goodness knows what that woman did to my back.. :( I need a holiday now!! I guess spa's just won't do no more!

“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.”