It's not i feel i don't get the attention... it's just i feel I'm receiving the attention for all the wrong reasons... When i feel i get close to someone, they feel it's a ticket to the runway.. Honestly? I just want someone who sees me for being me!

Is it that i need to learn how to trust my instinct more possibly? But then it always gives me mixed signals confusing me, making me just give up in the end.
I'm normally known to be a great listener, good at giving good advice and just being there to let it out on, but now i need it.. i don't think i can find it anywhere making things feel like I'm standing on thin ice, just waiting for it to break so i can fall through.

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears." 

 I need to be taken more seriously, I hate the fact that most men see me sexually than intellectually.. Support me towards the things i have planned for my life, or even sit to listen to me, encouraging me instead of me encouraging them, letting myself let go and not realize whats in it for me. I guess the only word I'm looking for here is Respect.