It's not i feel i don't get the attention... it's just i feel I'm receiving the attention for all the wrong reasons... When i feel i get close to someone, they feel it's a ticket to the runway.. Honestly? I just want someone who sees me for being me!

Is it that i need to learn how to trust my instinct more possibly? But then it always gives me mixed signals confusing me, making me just give up in the end.
I'm normally known to be a great listener, good at giving good advice and just being there to let it out on, but now i need it.. i don't think i can find it anywhere making things feel like I'm standing on thin ice, just waiting for it to break so i can fall through.

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears." 

 I need to be taken more seriously, I hate the fact that most men see me sexually than intellectually.. Support me towards the things i have planned for my life, or even sit to listen to me, encouraging me instead of me encouraging them, letting myself let go and not realize whats in it for me. I guess the only word I'm looking for here is Respect.

The perfect man!

Can someone please tell me where i can find a man who would do this for me... He's everything i want in a man.. yet again his music makes me cry over and over. Thanks to Bruno Mars, he makes me believe that my Mr. Right is definitely around even up to my standards.. If Bruno is around, then there MUST be more than one of him! Honestly.. it's worth the wait!!

“Maybe all men are a drug. Sometimes they bring you down and sometimes, like now, they get you so high.”

Bruno Mars - Grenade
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SR6iYWJxHqs

As much as i see his videos, he continues to succeed to make my eyes water and make me go emotional..
Read the lyrics and you will know why!

Lyrics


Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

 lnm03d

Spa from Hell!

There are some times in our lives where we feel the need to spoil ourselves a bit. This time it happened with me thinking i'm in desperate need of a massage! So therefore i thought it would be nice of me to treat myself to a nice day in a spa... Not knowing what i was going to put myself through! Never have i ever had the worse experience in my LIFE! Firstly, there were men around flaunting what their baba's gave them like no tomorrow... Isn't this suppose to be a spa for women... then why the hell are there men! Right, forget that.. the masseuse couldn't make my experience get any worse.. digging her fingers into my back.. Honestly I'm surprised i don't have any bruises around my back.. Let alone the fact that the only thing she could talk about was rich men and how she's trying hard to find one... Urmmm excuse me? I'm trying to relax here love!  Well i guess not.. i don't know how i put through it anyways! The whole experience was a nightmare.. So i thought it would be at least better if i went into the sauna to relax after a disastrous massage.. but of course a naked pervert with his art work being flaunted for the world to see was sitting there.. i just froze in shock while he sat there smiling at me... Seriously!! Is there such a place like that! This spa use to be quite decent up until recently. (I'm guessing) It probably went down hill and thought of another way to keep the economy going!! I feel so grossed out and now i'm suffering from back pains.. Goodness knows what that woman did to my back.. :( I need a holiday now!! I guess spa's just won't do no more!

“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.”

Feel good, Look Good & Shop till you DROP!

I know it's been a while, but i must say... I sure miss being here!! Since the last time i wrote here.. i've lost 10 kilos from working out so hard in the gym, and i must say it defo has boosted up my confidence and i feel much better. The only problem i have now since i've lost weight, SHOPPING is going out of control. I cannot stop buying clothes, shoes, and more accessories! I love looking good, but it just has got to stop!
Pink, pink, pink, and more pink! Shoes, dresses, tops, bags you name it and i bought it! My credit cards are reaching their limits, but i really don't think i care.. it's making me feel good! Got my hair done, my face done, my nails, and everything else :p

You have just got to love it! Shopping is my new habit... (At least it helps me feel good!)

So this goes to all my shopaholic gurls out there..

May we all shop till we drop!

"I like my money right where I can see it: hanging in my closet."
 Carrie from Sex and the City